I'm supposed to be very excited by now. But no, it's not exactly the case. And I want so much to not have something dragging me down instead. But what can I do? I'm not a robot who can just go on not feeling anything at all. I wanted to immediately forget but I still see things around me that bring everything back to my tired, foggy brain and heavy heart squeezed tight. Can't come up with enough happy thoughts to outweigh it. Make me forget.